4G's and a HOMEWRECKER
09-20-03.12:29

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i had to write today cause yesterday i was training up in the rides and i took my test and i'm certified for the big shot-the world's highest thrill ride! of course that is after me and rosina got into an arguement about what is necessary and putting me in an elevator when i work base! good thing brad got me and fixed it so i tried no to let that ruin my night but i kid you not i was raging, that brad had to calm me down. i hope i train for the high roller tonight. speaking of things to do i need to write to nini and jeng- i know it'll take me a while and i'll forget this. darn. i got paid time to pay for bills also. sunday is jeff's birthday and yeah he gotta have it at a sweet in the stratosphere so what i'm gonna be doing that day is right after work i stay there and go to their room. i hope my husband has fun though. it's cool that he'll be there though. ok then yesterday on top of my excitement learning the big shot...they made me go on it! i was petrified. this thing shoots up from the 112th floor 909 feet up high, 160 feet more, 45 miles an hour at 4 G's. i didn't know what to expect i thought since poeple be throwing up and pissing on their pants on this ride and that on the way up i'd sprain my neck like i did at the roller coaster in new york new york. but going up wasn't the worst part it was the first drop down after being shot up. oh my god! my knees are still week from that feeling. there was this terrible silence going down and it's like i was floating and oh my god! this is what it's like to be a bird! i knew i was soo soo high. my picture looked hidious! but by the third drop i opened my eyes and i was facing downtown but to my disorientation from my horror trust me i had no idea what were these lights i was looking at, all i know is that i was really high and my butt still hasn't made contact to the seat i was supposed to be in. but i'm glad i did it and i had to prove my self i'm brave enough to do it i mean if i'm gonna work the rides it's only logical that you go on the rides at least once. i would go on it again but not for a while. while i was waiting to be shot up i was just saying oh my god ....ok i should write a new page to this but i'll just duplicate this cause so many things has never happened to me in a matter of 24 hours, such as things brought up from the past and my dissappointments. first i need to title this HOMEWRECKER cause it just so happens that among the people i work with in the stratosphere is my husband's whole clan i should say even the family memebers that almost every family has--the one you try to avoid cause all they do is cause trouble. i had to call in today cause just as marivic domingues probably expected she got me and ryan fighting well he didn't believe the rumor because first of all it came from her and everyone in his family knows better than to believe anything that comes from her mouth cause not only is she decieveing but she'll use words or rumors in some cases make up rumors to use it to her advantage no matter what the outcome is to the other side. she'll tear down walls and manipulate the truth for things to work out her way. so ryan found out about the rumor about me and saul 'sigh' god here we go again. so rose came over thanks to her i actually knew what was going on and i asked to come with me to the mirage to talk to ryan which he was busy which explained why he wasn't answering his phone. but if i was cheating why would i be so careless to open the curtains for eveyone to see-look at me! i'm a bonivide hore! i mean rose knows what's up she knows eveything about me for some reason after working with her i could say we're close and she was there to tell ryan just in case...that her and nerissa knew this rumor since 4 months ago but despite their doubts in the beginning there's nothing to proove and that this is nothing but a misconception to certain actuans a rumor indeed. it's true me and saul are seen together at work in the stratosphere. again i keep saying he is my good friend and i know more about him than his girlfriend or mother probably does but that's our friendship. and to me even if i wasn't married this kind of friendship is never ruined anyways by pursueing a romantic relationship cause then it would be harder to be honest about things and you'd loose the one person you trust and talk to. i've had a few experiences with guys like this and to name them is noel alarcon i call him 'utol' i still talk to him when i call the philippines evey other month he now owns his own karaoke bar in san antonio in cavite i still owe him a lakers jersey 'sorry', another one is jesse gumalauwi who now is married and i knew him before i met my husband but when we used to talk ryan would get jealous cause ryan said you don't see it but i do i feel he likes you more so i had to cut him out of my life. but he lets me talk to noel. i mean right now if that's what it takes i will quit this job for him and hopefully his mom finds me another gig to help support us. damn. all cause of a rumor that has no truth. now i called in and ryan's happy but i'm worried that it seemed like brad was soo for me getting cross-trained and tried hard to get me in which i hope i proved myself worthy by taking the test right away i just hope he doesn't take it back cause of today i hope i'll still get to be cross-trained continuously tomorrow i only need a day and i can do this. i can do this.

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