circumstancial victim
08-10-03.23:16

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today is nerissa's burdei so yeah i had to call in. mike (bayaw) came, sherry nerissa's friend and that's it and the rest of the family and that one kody kid that nerissa is baby sitting from her work. i wish kuya vermon stayed longer to drink cause he's hella fun to drink with plus he's the only one that listens when i sing karaoke heheh. ryan cooked BBQ and i (tuhog) it but got it all over my pants...darn and i just washed them too. we tried to get gelo, melanie, aida, lyn to come but they didn't oh well. it was fun instead we had ate catchy drink with us this experiment daquiri me and rose made we had to add sugar cause the strawberries weren't sweet and i think our ghetto blender didn't help any either. so now i have another point while in the midst of trying to get transfered to ticketing. i'm going if they take me anyways but this is my loop that if they don't take me cause of this one extra point on my record then it really wasn't meant to be cause what is an attendance point compared to my sevices that's all on fate and this is omething i like to think i will have no control over at least. i'm blabbering but i'm so confortable in base working for the tower that i almost don't want to transfer which would be self centered of me like alot of people out there. ryan told i should just bear it and base my decision on our future and jhosue's benefit to it. he's right. such a perfect family man he is. tuesday we're getting sparkletts delivered no more carrying jugs of water all the way around the friggin apartment just to have water. saturday two out of four elevators were working on a hellova busy ass night but it went fine i had 15 minutes overtime whatever on the hourly rate i make it doesn't make a difference to me. it was kick back despite the hectic situation. saul came with another guy and girl but not his girlfreind which is surprising cause he said sunday is family day and saturday is for his girlfriend. well knowing him he thinks of himself first but still a restless and incomplete soul. sometimes i get this sick idea that he stays with his 30 year old girlfriend cause he just need her to be there and her being by his side is beneficial to his personal inetions and needs at the moment and when he finally gets to a position in life that he's aiming for he won't need her nurturing support no more. if i get the promotion i'm either getting a jeep rangler hardtop, chevy impala, or a honda prelude. i have my reasons heheh. all used of course. tomorrows my friday, i think i'm getting nerissa her euro lights, i want a burberry bag even just the blue label one, i want new pajamas cause you never know who'll you'll meet in your dreams....speaking of dreams my job got me dreaming of puuting people in queing lines but in my dream cause i'm psychotic i was putting a group of serial kiilers in a line and one of them got a way and the was chasing me with a wheel chair ('snicker!') and at the end when i think he's about to kill me he asks me to go up the stairs tap dancing with him. this is when my husband wakes me up cause he said i was shaking my feet. this seriously happened just this morning. my book is still far from done just when i compiled more of my peoms i write more. i need to develope my portfolio, so i'm looking into that right now. who knows maybe one day i'll write for hallmark or something. surreal. but i never give up easily if i see possibility.

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