heavy foot
06-18-04.11:16

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"The highest place, isn't always the best place to appreciate the scenery."

by Onang

I've been busy, not at work. I keep getting sent to unexpected vacations-if you know what I mean. I have been suspended for the 3rd time in less than 2 months. Is there something wrong with me? OH, well. Like I say now-a-days, "I just take what comes to me one at a time, and deal with it." I have given up planning ahead cause things never go my way. I was also trying to get something accomplished at work which is probably the only reason I still out of desperation hung on. He's right, why be afraid to loose a 7.50 an hour job when I'm way better than that?

If I just accept what I have and work with it, then I am more satisfied of myself. Cause I know I can handle anything. Right now I'm hoping the worst, cause of my nature to be a negative thinker. Who gets suspended the 3rd time and comes back to work? I mean regardless if I'm at fault or not-they sure as hell try to make it look like I'm a really really really really really bad person. Hahum. So like I said, I've been busy. Not busy doing housework sure enough not busy at work, but busy getting my portfolio together-I finally see some progress but I have a long way to go. Busy pursuing my coco necklaces-thingy! :P Busy looking at other options in life. I doubt it that I'll get called in back to work, and even if I do I will not and I do not want to stay there any longer. I honestly have this sick feeling that they're trying to get rid of me. Bwahahahahah! We'll see. Like I also always say: "It's funny what one person can do."

I have a heavy foot,

Is it cause I'm standing 1000 feet?

I don't even know why I should,

Carry on when I have fallen too deep-

into your arms where I would like to stay,

My heavy foot won't carry me away

-from you,

Have you a heavy foot too?

by: Onang

think of me when i'm not with you,

think of me cause without you i don't know what to do,

it's like a part of me is missing,

cause of you i can't keep on pretending- that life has new meaning,

so when we're apart,

i keep thoughts of us together close to my heart,

it helps me keep on going,

if i know it's me you are tossing and turning,

in the night your love takes flight,

meets me in our sweet dreams,

and with the blink of an eye i wake up and you are out of sight.

by: onang

life isn't fair for giving you to me this way/life isn't fair cause your heart and mine has gone astray...

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