lamp shade and disappointments
07-05-04.21:16

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Monday, July 05, 2004

My lampshade on my nightstand stays on for you. Hopefully the soft glow will draw you to me. I can comfort you.

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Saturday, July 03, 2004

Been watching alot of Sex and the City. That's what happens when your homea lone and no where to go, no one to turn to but your thoughts. Sometimes I have to distract myself from thinking by watching tv.

I was told I get dissappointed so easily. There are different levels of dissappointment. Little ones that I can wash away with some chocolate, Big ones that take a lifetime to correct. Then, the level of dissappointment you feel from someone is proportional with the level of the relationship you have with that person. Being dissappointed is having feelings and is just part of being human. I couldn't be more human right now then. I never said I was immortal anyways.

A mutual relationship is like a window to someone else's life. It's like you build windows around this person that makes you part of their life. You start off with one window, close it and move on to the next, hopefully through this one he will be your night and shining armour and come climbing up your window tonight. So you leave the window open, hopefully. If not you wait patiently enjoying the new veiw. If it doesn't work then you should just be glad you got to have a glimpse and move one to another window till there are now more option left for that person-and you move on for real....

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