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08-16-03.11:51

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wow i really feel like writing today but i have no idea what to write about! i still need to finish my manuscript for my book and i'm not even half way there. my hand hurts it's so much easier to type sometimes but then again there is nothing better that a good old fashioned pen and paper. still bidding on ebay and always getting out bid since i have no time to sit and watch the item cause i go to work and stuff. oh well if it's meant to be it's meant to be right? i got a new J cd the one entitled beautiful ones oh which i'm gonna stick in the cd player hold on....wow! my ghetto old ass cd player read it! it didn't read the other cd i had from korea. i'n not korean but i like k-pop. :) coolness. brilliant minds i give lots of props and credit to...kristine sa, J (dzei), billy lawrence...cause they not only sing but they write what they sing and there can be nothing more powerful than that to me. i work till 2:30am today sheesh! i did too yesterday oh supposedly but i hardly stayed and i had to stay since i called in last nerissa's birthday and i'm already missing 8 hours. i'm gonna regret this when i see my small ass paycheck next week. so ticketing hasn't called me back but it hasn't been a week besides i don't know if i want it remember? rosina's giving me an interview this wednesday for the relief-re-ride ticketing position which is also as much as that ticketing position i was applying for only this one i get to stay in the same department and still work base from time to time and i want that. if she asks me why should i be given the position i'd tell her it's because i want this job more than anyone else and no one could ever want this job more than i do, so besides my overall ability to work this job better than any of the candidates that put in for the job. if given the opportunity of this job i will act responsibly to take care of it and work this job the best anyone has ever had because i want to stay in this department because i love working for tower operations and i plan to stay here and be dedicated. isn't it all obvious on how i fighted for the dispatch position the least they could do is give me this opportunity. and if this is a mercy interview, just tell me now if i'm not getting it and if you already know who you're hiring then spare me the false hope issues but if you change your mind i'm more than worthed for this job and i won't dissapoint you. whew! cheezy ain't it. but seriously i mean it. i paid for some of our bills, ryan bought nerissa her euro tail lights for her focus and it should come in a week. now what to get rose cause her birthday is coming up too. my mother in law's birthday passed but i told her to take a raincheck and i'll get her another dooney bag. amber got fired gosh i wanted her dispatch job so bad and i think brad thinks i would've been good at it too, too bad i have family working with me, darnest! i was in a bad mood yesterday and everytime i'm in a bad mood at work i have lunch with claudia which is good cause she's probably the only one that knows what to do when i'm in a bad mood cause if it was someone else and they started to act stupid i would tell them off. fe is going to day shift poor thing no one likes her but in a way she's full of herself just cause she's a model and she says things without thinking that offend people. yesterday mayra called her an airhead to her face. everyone was happy. raffy's birthday is coming and oh my gosh i've been telling him i'm saving up for his ps2 but shit! i have no money i'll send him something cheaper then cause i sure as hell don't have $200 or will have that much by august 20. i could send him a balikbayan box and with nini's stuff cause i said i'd get her a cellphone but damn i don't have that much either. my husband loves me...even he gets on my nerves but he can't even sleep without me by his side so when i go home late he waits for me either on the sofa or on the bed with the lights on. melanie said i'm the LIGHT...heheh i like that.

here's a little something off the cd from j (jae y. chung) i got:

beautiful ones:

you teach me

mold me

hold me in your grasp

like a dream come into being

breathing my air, kneeling

in between these waves of blue

drunk fom sweet love, i take sight of you

and you are beautiful

your poems discover me

forever changing the shape of my heart

lingering on every word

tearing sanity apart

from inside me

the power of love's destiny

you understand me,

with just one kiss you devour me

under the falls of love's deep blue sea

you see me.

"...don't forget the days that you were loved, happiness is all i want you to know, when you look back on all that we've shared know in your heart my love will be there, how could you let love go? don't know how much more my heart can take, to see you walk away it breaks my heart..."--J

"jealous of the girl who's arms are around you, if she's keeping you satisfied...la la la la la she's a very very lucky girl..."--nina

"...crazy emotions build walls that make me feel safe. but when the river runs over there is no escape. you don't have to know this. you don't have to say that it's ok. i don't really need you. feelings carry on..."--billy lawrence

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