my special parking space
07-30-04.22:36

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What is so special about my parking space, that there are four open assigned covered parking spaces and people just happen to always randomly choose mine! Oh here's a good number who cares if this person won'y have a parking space when they get home.

I'm almost comfortable at my new job, which in my record this didn't take very long. I'm pleased. I miss my friends from the Stratosphere though.

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Tuesday, July 20, 2004

something happen as i met you,

something happen as cupid struck through,

i'm not myself,

don't know what to do,

all of a sudden i'm faced with the thoughts of you.

i can't even recognize myself,

you make me someone new,

i never knew i could ever get like this,

if only we never had that first kiss.

but i know love is just,

we are both romance and lust,

promise me we will always be,

whatever this is we have we can keep this luxury,

i always want to be this close to you for eternity.

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Friday, July 16, 2004

Thunder in the desert, thunder in my heart,

Thunder and lightning,

Even we're two steps apart,

It's just good to know, that I'll always have,

Memories of we,

When we can no longer be....

Ok. How come a smell of something can take you back to memories as if you were there. And whatever feelings were associated with that memory is felt just by a smell. I was brushing my teeth when i noticed the bottle of Still perfume and i just knew if I opened it and smelled it that it would take me back to New Year's Eve 2003/2004. I know to myself I haven't used this perfume because the memories it brings back but tonight i wanted to know what was haunting me. So I opened the bottle and smelled it and there I was. I was feeling excited and troubled at the same time. The exact same feeling I was having when I was working new year's eve. It took me back to the part where I was doing the balloon drop at midnight at the Top of the World lounge and I can hear the noise makers and horns. Andy on my right side and him on my left. I remember walking around and dancing with Ryan and Alisha and this is where after that she invited me so many times to go clubbing with her but I never found the time to. (sorry) And then I'm by the showroom standing with Claudia, Karolyn, Maricella, Rocio and Saul; and we're all greeting each other happy new year and I recieve a yellow rose, and Claudia wipes icing on my face. This memory haunts me because I miss that day and if I could I would like to do it all over and at the same time. It's saddening that I can never do that and it's just a memory I can reminisce I can never redo or take back anything I did then, but live the outcome of any event that I did then that may have shifted my life and here I am. I don't wanna remember what I cannot go back to. I don't wanna remember what I miss. I don't wanna remember the feeling of pain pain in the past when its bad enough that I had to go through many types of pain once or twice. But when faced with a familiar smell, my emotions break loose and are fresh in the air I breath just as my present reality is.

And now I'm sitting here in front my computer back to reality. It was a nice visit to the past though. Thanks to me sense of smell. What bottle of perfume should i sniff next? Or where else in my past can I let this take me. Wow, my very own time machine!

Oh, and I was gonna watch the re-runs of the Filipino soap operas. But since now i'm at a low cause this perfume and smell thing, I'm going to pass. I know that if I watch the show it will be sad or something tragic will happen. Why can't everything just be pure and problem free for once. I mean it's already

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