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10-08-03.11:32

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gosh i feel the magnitude of this dead end job. i really want to do something else but direct people where to go when they tour the tower. i hate that i can't go on vacations. i miss the beaches in and malls in the philippines. i miss my friends and family in cavite that i haven't seen since 1996. all my friends have babies and i'm the godmother of a few of them and i haven't seen them. i hate that i can't even afford to go to california cause i can't afford to change the tires in my car. i can't afford a simple brake job. all this has left me into my motto that i'm only buying clothes if they're $20 or less and when i go to the store i head striaght to the back and look for the clearance racks. well i thought to myslef it's about how you deliver anyways. but i atill am not switching make-up brands. i have to have chanel. i hate i can't buy those cute disney pajamas for jhosue that would be so cute on him especially now it's getting cold. i'm trying my best to submit querries to cards companies and such...blah blah blah. 'sigh!'

on the brighter side i feel like i have been nudged a peace offering last monday which i greatly accept. i want no grudges and the thing with me i easily get mad but i am quick to forgive. if you start talking to me i'm cool with that. except if i know you're just nobody to me or you betrayed me.(remenisces 'aaarggggggghhhhhh!!!!!!') i got to sit in ops base and wait for the phone call that never came for 5 minutes. damn, i for real thought when he called me in there that i was getting written up again. i held my breath before i opened the door and prepared to be faced with an arguement. but it wasn't what i expected. i was being entrusted with something. so peace offering.

ryan just had a $150 haircut! i was so mad cause tony our hairdresser punched in the wrong numbers in the credit card machine. so our money was on hold for a whole day when we needed it to do groceries and stuff.

oh my gosh i dunno everything is ok but buwisit cause i'm not satisfied yet i want more than what i have now. but it's hard to go back to school at my pay rate even they will reimburse but i don't have the money to start things up with nor to buy the books i need. plus since i stopped school for a whole year again i don't know what i want anymore. i just want to write. how sad is that!? i have to finish what i started though. then i have so many ideas to start up my own business but i don't have the capital for it nor do i thing anyone would lend me the capital. i know my mom would but she's mad at me. i feel really bummed right now. i need to stop thinking.

Sad but True -Imperfections and Confessions-

-I have never had a real job

-I am a flirt

-I cannot stand fake girls although at times I can be fake myself

-Sometimes I actually like staying home

-My best friend can kick your a$$

-Once I get what I want, I am usually never satisfied

-I get bored easily =oP

-Sometimes I can be a hardcore insensitive *bleep* =)

Some people think it`s holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it`s letting go. - Sylvia Robinson

Think like a man of action, act like a man of thought.- Henri Bergson

"The heart has its reasons which reason does not know."

-Blaise Pascal

"When words become unclear, I shall focus on photographs. When images become inadequate, I shall be content with silence."

- Ansel Adams

Why do we fall in love? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive.

Where every sense is heightened,every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens.

It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn`t diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives." -Unknown

What`s meant to be will always find a way.

The dream of the person you wish you could be, is a waste of the person you are.

After awhile you learn the difference between holding hands and chaining a soul andyou learn that love doesn`t last forever and company doesn`t mean security.

It takes a lot to build up trust and just seconds to destroy it.

Love is not blind, it is jealousy that is blind.

Been through it all, yet still I rise.

Love is just a word till you can find special some one who can give it a meaning.

"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare."

-Mark Twain

my mind itches and iscratch it on paper

I’m so tired of being here.

I am screaming silently –

So loud that it drains the very life in me.

I hear your voice and it steals my sanity.

Your sweet smell still lingers in my room.

Like a slow moving black and white movie reel

It replays, then goes...

caramel coated secret

"As we kiss, a thousand nerves go wild on my lips."

My chest gave way to a violent stampede beating of my heart.

Possesively we held as passion ignited

Enraptured love - I loose myself, to be found nevermore...

If you anger me easily, you`ll just as be easily forgiven.

Forgiveness is a promise, not a feeling.

delusion is a wonderful pill and is quite equivilent to soma.

When you have lived your life and your old, you will think back about the times of your life, then you will realize that you dont regret anything that you`ve done.

Rather you will regret the things you`ve never done.

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