real rants
11-20-03.19:08

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i am not gonna let the shit people say about me at work affect the way i act. i mean what the hell nothing is going on so why should i even act like there is? i will talk to who ever i want to and say what i want to say and act the way i want to act regardless of what people say or think about me or the stories they make up about my life. why is everyone so interested in my life? if you are then read my diary but don't make up stories. 'smirks' it's almost funny if it wasn't so pitiful and pathetic. so i'm going on the way i am and allegations will not stop me. if anyone wants to k now the truth then ask me or stalk me, whatever! leave me alone! why can't people worry about their own lives, their own job and their own thing...not others.

just because i'm quiet, doesn't mean i have nothing to say

a few days ago i just almost had it and shed a tear at work. like i said robert saw me and so did manji. once again...just because i cry, doesn't mean i'm weak

people who talk to much say all that have to say. and they turn out to be pretty shallow. people who are reserved know they don't have to open their mouths to prove anything. they are smart enough to take care of their own business and know the lie from the truth.

and i am worried i've been told for the past few weeks to expect this and it hasn't come? i am such a pessimistic person. so here i am loosing faith.

but then again this work thing bothers me that everyone comes to work to socialize. who hires and judges these poeple to be hired. if management wanted a certain standard work environment and quality they would know who of what good notes to accept to meet their expectations. but then anyone going for a job puts on a face. who would know the truth from a lie? then again my point again about rumors. the truth is never the one that is talked about, just the manipulated story of what people want to hear. thus, defending yourself is pointless and all you can do is sit and listen and laugh and maybe admire the creativity. and again i have to add another point. it's easier to point the finger and make accusations that people will sympathize and support. even you are the real story it's hard to make people believe that those words were untrue, to make poeple believe your defense.

on the lighter side i bought final fantasy x2 yesterday when it came out. i'm so excited when i sleep i think of it! cause i'm yuna! heheh. i'm gonna buy contacts like her eyes green and blue. well maybe i won't go overboard. but right now as i sit and type this i'm thinking of that theif i'm supposed to chase and i can't find him. i went back and forth 4 times in that area and i still can't find him. i could continue without finding him but i want to cover everything so i'm gonna go back again till i find him. ryan bought popeye's chicken for dinner i was soo hungry now i'm sleepy. too full.

more rants to come....and pardon my template it will be done soon...

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