song for the moment
12-14-03.00:08

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i'm sick right now. ryan said i look awful i told him well thankies cause i feel awful. we just came from the quick care by MGM and my kidneys are acting up an infection-again. so i'm on really big tablets of antibiotics and a little something something for the pain heheh. but i feel sick, my back is killing me i have cramps but i'm not on my rag i'm walking funny. the doctors there already know me and i was already referred to a specialist two months ago but i haven't gotten the time to go. i have to take jhosue for his well-check before i do any of that. at least they can still give me stuff to hold it off and i'm ok for the meantime.

i'm still waiting for a phonecall.

it's been hella slow at work cause it's cold and it's christmas time i mean who in their right mind would go gambling for christmas. plus the high roller is down for maintenance for the next couple of weeks. there are no positions to be at cause then last week it was raining just icky weather. so i've been taking alot of paid time off. like today which i'm sick good thing i got today off so i could go to see the doctor. since it's been cold i'm addicted to beanies and scarves right now. but i only have black ones. i mean they said our winter clothing has to be neutral color. with the color of our uniforms being green and brown black is the safest way to go without looking weird to me i mean in the uniform we already look like trees. it's so lonely being up there like in the big shot and looking down to the next floor where the roller coaster is at and there's no one there, no one to talk to really. or when you're in x-scream and you can't hear the roller coaster above you. i don't know it's the drugs that i'm on right now that's making me talk nonsense.

i miss melanie. i see her at work but then again on fridays i start at 630pm and she starts at 530m so unless we have break together i don't see her at all. she was base lead last friday. ;) i haven't even had the time to go out and have lunch with her. i mean i'm not that busy. hmmmm. friday me, her and saul had lunch together which was miraculous by the way. we were sitting in the EDR that was fun. they were talking about last sunday going to Mt. Charleston as they had planned like a month ago but didn't happen. melanie planned it and she was like where were you my friend? she said that's it! i ain't planning it anymore. saul told her well that's why it didn't happen cause you planned it. i miss that. we had fun even for 45 minutes or less. oh i know why i haven't went to lunch with her i don't have money i'm broke! whew! i thought i was forgetting something so nothing's wrong i'm just broke. next week i only work three days again i'm looking forward to it. monday. tuesday. friday. february-our lease is up i think we'll just extend for 6 more months here at latigo. february-my one year anniversary working for the stratosphere.

hey there's snow in red rock!

kristy's having her baby in a month. congratulations! looking forward to seeing you again!

thanks for the cd's jeff!

i'm almost done with final fantasy x2. i wanted to play right now but it's ryan's turn to be on the playstation. he has to play socom2 with his bitch jeff and his buddies etc etc oh yeah their clan...[LOL] i still can't believe i spent the whole night in the hospital it's already tomorrow.

perry ellis 360 red smells really good! not just good but y-u-m-m-y-!

i'm doing laundry tomorrow just cause i forgot to pick up my uniform last friday i gotta wash it now. tomorrow i may have finished ffx2 already. tomorrow i may feel a little bit better, better enough to go to work the next day. tomorrow i have to write checks for our bills this month and mail them monday before work.

christmas time and what's new? nothing i'm still broke like last year so nothings really new.

i have rashes...damn sea food. :P

this is me right now. sick. pondering. broke. bitchy. daydreaming. 'sigh'

this is my song for the moment: it's what's playing in my car, in the bathroom when i take a bath and on the computer...

Intuition

by Dj Encore

Ooh, ooh...

I have come all this way

Time to make a turn

Will I make it right

I'll live and I'll learn

I'm playing my own song now

I will survive a change of key

Because I follow this guideline

Hiding inside of me

Found an answer in my heart that I will follow

It might keep sanity at bay

But I'll be hollow not to give a part of me

I get so much from you

Could this really be a wrong when it feels right to do

Ooh,ooh...

Feels like my past

Is a page I turn

In a book of fate

I've lived and I've learned

I'm playing my own game now

I'm making rules I won't pretend

When intuition conquers you

You will win in the end

Found an answer in my heart that I will follow

It might keep sanity at bay

But I'll be hollow not to give a part of me

I get so much from you

Could this really be a wrong when it feels right to do

Easy drifting away on believing

Never give up on a feeling

Found an answer in my heart

Found an answer in my heart

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