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11-09-03.12:10

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i keep thinking that what if i really wasn't off yesterday and i did a no call no show i'd be fired to today. excuse this negativity cause it felt too good to be true. i had a blast! i'll post a few pictures when i get the time and my pictures get developed. i ate soo much! jhosue had fun! although tears of happiness and change were shed it was all good for me at least. hi melanie!

me and ryan went home early from kuya vermon's house. but we were singing and drinking the whole time. ate tuyo, sardines, bbq, hotdog...just laughing and having fun with uncle andy too, ryan's family is great i always have fun!

we bought finding nemo my new all time favorite disney movie...

'just keep swimming-just keep swimming...'

and i've started on my homeschooling and finished a couple of tests and got all perfect scores heheh. can't be hard, i expect that especially it being home schooling. so comfortable and convinient. i got a new cd by ian van dahl it's techno i love it! so yeah as you can see i'm a bit more happier than my last entry. haven't heard shit about me at work that's cause the girl has been off but that's ok. i made my peace that she can talk all she wants. besides the rumors don't bother me so there. oh and my brakes did get fixed for 380! but they don't sqeak anymore and the thumping and grinding sounds are gone! i go back to work tonight. i just feel pretty neutral about it.

i wish i had a new camera for my phone one with a flash. i wish i get called next week. please oh please God!

i had an weird dream last night. that all of us had to mop the tower floors and the water was dirty no matter how i kept re-rinsing i even bought the new pinesol that sinks the dirt in the mop water so you never mop with dirty water again. (when i saw that commercial i wanted to buy some) 'smirks' then our preshift was these filipinos teaching everyone tagalog. and i got mad and said 'you are a prejudice!' so they stopped. then a guy i work with was sitting on the left of the girl i work with (that in reality has been talking shit about me) in the EDR and none of them said anything to me as i walked by and set my purple bagpack beside her to sit down. she said 'what the hell is this?' and i turned around and slapped her saying 'this?' and i picked up the bagpack and slammed it in her face twice. and she threw it on the ground and as she bent over i snagged her hair and just started punching her face....felt so real i could fell my hands swing! (am i psycho or what! even in a dream man that felt good!) then i woke up.

vergo's prelude needs to get registered this month. ok it's the registration that's the issue it's how it's gonna pass the smog test. 'sigh'

my hair is getting long. yay! and i cooked some herb mashed potatoes and egg drop soup just now for me and jhosue to eat this morning so he's full and so am i even we're broke.

someone at work told me: 'if i could find a man that would look at me the way your husband does i would be so happy and wouldn't want anything more.' and i realize what i have despite the dark times it's all good. ryan always thinks of me first before himself. although he's not a fighter i know he'd give his own for me. he doesn't go psycho jealous like i do cause his love for me is unconditional. he lets me be free as long as he doesn't miss me. he lets me make my own decisions and he just holds my hand and supports it even if it isn't such a good one. he's honest if not he just can't lie to me cause it shows and he'll end up confessing. he can never stay mad at me even he tries. he would turn his back on his family for me. he can watch me sleep. he's cute. heheh. he always lets me win. he knows how to deal with my temper. he gives me all his money and yet he still manages to surprise me with gifts...ok ok he's mine and i'm his forever. he told me when we get settled more in life we'll get married again in the philippines in a church. cause he feels bad i didn't get the ceremony i wanted but i chose not to cause my parents weren't for it. so there'd be no one to give me away but he said my dad can give you away or you could get raffy. yeah it's gonna happen :)

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