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11-05-03.18:55

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"no pill that can be taken no money that can be stolen can take this pain away...even for the moment." says I

and here are some random things i found to think about:

SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.

A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn`t need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS AND STATISTICS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him alot and love him a little.

To be happy with a woman, you must love her alot and not try to understand her at all.

LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are alot more willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn`t.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won`t change, and she does.

DISCCUSION TECHNIQUE

A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

"the music takes me away,

in its depths i stray,

the life i live is pain,

while blood pumps through my veins,

i try to exist,

in melodious bliss."

Rona

my tire blew on me last friday and i had to replace it for 140. i now owe my mother in law a hundred cause we came out short of rent money. so much for having 3 paychecks for october cause i'm broke as hell. at least i have 3 days off this week i'm actually looking forward to that after all the drama bullshit at work.

so the x-scream is now up and running although i've only got to be assigned on it once. i rode it quite a few times when we were training for it. that was probably the best part of being trained for that ride. cause when i think about it we all didn't do anything just practice pressing the buttons and putting out thumbs up and we got paid for that. we got a free shirt and we got to ride it almost all night. that was swell.

the temperature here in vegas has dropped significantly. it is now freezing that it's time to whip out the hoodies and beanies.

dammit!

to make matters worse my brakes are fucked up. like yesterday it wasn't making as much noise but i already noticed the first symptoms. right now i can still drive the car carefully but i don't want to reach the point where i'll need new rotors again this time my warranty isn't gonna cover that-no more. i feel so stressed out. i'm taking it in friday morning and i'm expecting to pay at least 315. oh my God! i hope it doesn't go over 400. cause that i can afford and still have plenty for groceries and pay off the money i owe.

vergo has cima convention tickets and wanted ryan to come with him. they were like yeah we'll take the his BMW and the prelude there and me and rose could be the import models. so we could show off the intricate art detailing on the paint job in the prelude. heheh. inside joke.

jhosue and i picked up socom 2 a while ago. ryan's gonna be pretty pre-occupied for the next month. i was short a dime and jhosue gave up his quarter. i feel like me and ryan are back in the days of top ramen and 25 cent sodas. those were the best times but right now it shouldn't be that way cause we have jhosue.

i'm not really happy right now nor am i sad. i'm ok. it's christmas and i'm always broke during this season. i don't really like being reminded of christmas cause my mother traumatized this season for me by dictating every year what present i should open first and when. i am forced to act surprised even i already know what it is. if i open a present in the wrong time she'll make me wrap it up and open it again so she can take a picture. she would tell me not to rip the wrapping paper so she could use it again on me next year. and she would make out a present that was from my dad even i didn't know where he was at the time, since he had left. i always getting scolded on christmas because i knocked a christmas ball off the tree. or even worse by not being or showing her i was happy enough. cause as a child from 7 to 12 my dad left us after years of them quarelling always, i also knew my mother didn't always know where to get money for us to eat the next day, she also had to support her family in the phils. where we lived at the time, the house i lived in was falling apart, i was always getting sick--and i had to hide my grades from her. i'm happy?

the people i work with are so immature, then again some aren't. but one person like her loves to spread rumors about me trying to make my life miserable or ruin it. i know she wants me to loose my temper on her then get fired over something stupid like confrontation maing a hostile work environment. so all the rumors that she spreads will disipate like vapor and fresh ones will surface. but the fresh ones won't be about me. again i have made headlines and i am the talk of the tower. and again all i can do is wait for the lies she spread about me to be forgotten so i'll let it ride in her unnoticed existance. she is not worth me stressing over, loosing my job or getting angry. obviously she is a work of desperation and lack of attention. pity the one who is engaged without an engagement ring. pity the one who only makes people like me stronger. pity the one who has no life and wakes up everyday thinking of me.

"in my sleep,

i cease to weep,

my sanity i keep,

hidden in the darkness deep."

Rona

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